Anxious Day and a Failed Print

September 5 2025 – Friday
Entry #17

Today is Zoe's and my 6-year anniversary. Wow! That's a long frickin’ time. Yesterday was a weird day for me… I started with some simple tasks, not woodworking related, one of them was to upload 2 of these entries on my website. ChatGPT was being annoying with transcribing, until I realized it was because one of the photos was sideways.

But it was too late… I sunk a lot of time into that already, so I rushed to finish my drawers I made the day before. After having them installed, which was very annoying and time-consuming, I looked at the time, and it was already 1 pm!

I kept trying to calm myself down because I started to feel very anxious. I kept thinking of everything I needed to do, but couldn't get myself to do it. It was a spiral, I said, "OK, I have to do this, this, and this. What's the most important right now?" But then this wave of anxiety would wash in, reminding me of all the other things I didn't list. I'd start pacing, getting mad at myself that I wasn't able to just start something ANYTHING! I go inside to find my 3D print that was completed, all strung across the build plate, my first failed 3D print ever.

I decided that I'd have a chill edit day instead. Sitting at my computer desk, unsure where to start, I began feeling anxious again. I decided to lie in bed, where I crashed for a few hours. I woke up feeling better. I was able to get some stuff done, but I only did what I wanted, what was fun in that moment. As night settled in, I decided to get something completed from my task list, an easy one, also one I've been putting off. The task was to create a better thumbnail for my tray video. The sooner I got this done, the better, because the views started ramping up randomly. I'm pretty happy with how it turned out. Hopefully it gets some good results on the A/B test.

Today, we’re going to a rave. I haven't been to one in almost a year. Am I excited? Kinda. I'm excited to see some friends. Not excited to drive downtown and lose time in my day to get stuff done. I should be happy to do something fun/different, but idk, just feels like it’s wasting my time.

My goal today is to get some minor tasks completed and to get some filming done. I need to focus on my live edge project, so I'll probably do that. I mentioned I wanted to have a more cinematic filming style. I really want to try to achieve that on this project. One thing I find hard is how to film that style without having the story/voiceover laid out to understand what needs to be shot. Maybe I'll just record so many different shots so I have a bunch of options when editing. I also started to read a book this morning called "The Five C's of Cinematography" (Affiliate). Hopefully the more I read of this, the better my camera skills will get.