My First Entry.

Wednesday, Aug 20 2025

Hello, my name is lan. I am trying to pursue my creative journey. I want to grow as YouTube creator, making interesting projects. This may include woodworking, but ideally, I want to grow into more. I have a slight fear there is a cap in my niche with how big I get. I am also worried about how long I can do this without making money. I do hate how so many people, including my dad, always ask that question. I can't blame them; this would never fly if they did it at my age. I know they want the best for me, but what they don't realize is pursuing what truly interests me.

I am proud of what I've accomplished so far, but it can sometimes be hard to feel accomplished when others don't see it after being presented it. Zoe has been very supportive lately though. Sometimes I have this feeling that it isn't genuine since she showed concern previously, and I expressed that I need her support. I guess the fact she's trying does show a lot. I am very fortunate to have her in my life. I should be more on top of proposing to her. I just feel like I have so much more important matters to be focusing on, but maybe I should be making this more of a priority. I mean, even if I've had doubts, she's the perfect girl for me.