Finding Privacy to Write and Why I Want to Be Home

August 27, 2025 – Wednesday
Entry #8

Today was the first day I had to use self-discipline to write this. I said to myself I’d only write a few sentences if that’s all I can do.

The reason for the almost failure was my environment. I am visiting my mom’s, and every time I’ve visited since moving, I have this feeling of stress. I don’t have my space, a place to put my clothes, a comfortable place to read and write.

I’m sitting in the backyard, the only place I find privacy to write. I basically feel I need to be alone to write because of embarrassment. I don’t want anyone to know I’m “writing a diary.”

Even though I plan to post these publicly, I am iffy to tell people about it. Maybe because I don’t want them to only read to know what I’m thinking or to see if I talked about them.

Either way, today we’re visiting the ex. I don’t really want to go. I mainly want to get my mom’s car fixed and go home.

The reason I want to be home is because I want to work on growing my channel, so I guess that’s a good sign.

I also hope to find time to do the planning I came up with yesterday.